We take everything for granted until we lose it all. What dammed your soul, I know what dammed mine. To create something truly evil, you must corrupt something truly good. Lets see if you can relate to my story, shall we.

Mojo has been there for me since day one, through all my ups and downs. I just wish I could have done the same for him.  If I had, then maybe I wouldn’t have to make this decision. “Nyx could you come inside please, we need to talk. Nyx?”

“Yes mum I’m coming, give me a sec ok.”

“Ok.” mum sighed 

“Should we go in now boy?” Mojo gave me a hard look then nudging me towards the house, as if saying we have to eventually.  Soon I started walking closer and closer, Mojo being at my side the whole time. He knew I was upset, and trying to change that. I loved him for it, but nothing could help me now. Finally I was only inches away from the door. Hesitant to open it, for I feared if I did the wrath of hell would be released upon me, destroying any shrivile of hope that remained within me. This soft smooth fur then brushed against my skin, it was Mojo, saying it will be ok, we will get through this. Together. 

Here goes nothing. My feet slowly dragging against the floor resistant to go inside, but no matter how badly I didn’t want this conversation I knew it had to happen. “So have you thought about what we said?” mum asked 

“Yea I did, I was wondering if we could give him another chance?”  

“We have had him for two years now, if anything was going to change it would’ve already happened.” dad sighed, knowing I couldn’t bare losing my best friend. My only friend. 

“Please I don’t want to lose him, I’ll do anything else. Please!” I pleaded hoping that we wouldn’t have to do the one thing that would break me forever. Without even noticing I started to feel water droplets streak down my face one by one until it slowing started turning into a waterfall that I couldn’t control. 

“You know that it will be safer this way, after everything that Mojo has been through. If we don’t put him down children could be endangered, he is too unpredictable.” mum tried to make it sound like putting him down was a mercy, but would I ever be able to come back from this?

“Why did those people have to take their anger out on him, he was only a pup. He never hurt anyone, but those idiot children didn’t care, instead they threw shit at him. Don’t even get me started on the men they were the worst of the worst, cutting him, throwing him. Just thinking about it makes me want to-” 

“Try to calm down. We can’t change what happened in the past, all we can do now is try help him find peace, and the only way to do that is to relieve him of his suffering.” dad claimed. 

“Sorry, I-I just need a moment.” I barely managed to finish my sentence before I ran out as quickly as I could, hoping to find some clarity. 

Finally I feel free. Away for all the thoughts and feelings that keep running through my mind. I don’t think I could have handled staying inside for much longer. It felt so inclosed in there, the air was becoming thicker and thicker, my breath was being taken away, but luckily I got out just in time. 

How am I supposed to respond to all that? Do they really expect me to make that decision. I can’t lose the only person that understands me. The only person that I trust. Without him I am lost. Forever. Suddenly I saw this dark shadow running towards me. Wait a minute is that  “Mojo!” I was so happy he found me, I yelled out with joy, I couldn’t contain my excitement. “Hi boy, I am so happy you are here, you are exactly what I needed.” As always I got the wag off his tall and a big cuddle which is sometimes annoying because he weighs twice my weight, making it difficult to hold him up. One time I remember when he jumped on me out of nowhere to give me a cuddle, and I ended up straight on the ground, with a lot of pain, I might add. Thinking of those good memories brought back the fact I had to make the hardest decision of my life. It is going to change me, but it has to be done for the safety of others, I have to. No matter how much it hurts.

I have to put him down.